Te busque

Te busqué debajo de las piedras y no te encontré En la mañana fria y en la noche te busqué Hasta enloquecer Pero tu llegaste a mi vida como una luz Sanando las heridas de mi corazon Y haciéndome sentir viva otra vez **



Best song ever,
well just the chorus really. Juanes<3

"Oh, I am just waiting till the shine wears off"

It is funny in fact when you come to realize that the person that is supposed to understand and know you the best can be so oblivious at times, or most of the time. I don't think he is the right person, the right friend, if there is such thing.
I feel ashamed of sharing my problems with him because he seems so perfect and completely happy with everything around him that I just don't have the heart to ruin it with my 'sometimes stupid silly dilemmas.'
The worst thing though, is that I know this person feels the same... although he has never mentioned it; I am not his confident, best friend, lover or anything remotely close to that. We've talked about this, but nothing has changed. I think I held on to a fantasy, a romance that was never real. I was never really in love, it was astounding lust, lust, lust.
And now I am lost,

It was silly of me to think that writing this would help me out. I feel even worse... I really wish you could trust me. I really wish we could be friends, who knows even more than friends? damn it.

"You are standing in my way"

All these strikes need to end.
I have never seen so much selfishness and laziness combined.
EVER.

"You know me - it's all or none"

I am not about to change for anyone.
That is called character my friend.
I have kept my word.

Down, DOOOWN.

A lot of things have been happening since I took the time to actually write on here. I do need a break from it all though; my daily routine is getting tiring and boring, and I need something new fast. Whether it be a new friend, a day with my mom, a day somewhere outside of London, a job, a day at an amusement park with my favorite people, a road trip across the USA with Thien Tan Tran, a trip to Quebec for six months...lmao, but really i just want to do something out of the ordinary. Scream at the top of my lungs somewhere really cool... and get weird looks from strangers.
I don't know...something...anything!
If you happen to have any cool, exciting, CHEAP ideas. Let me know :).

<3 Mafe